Less Than A Quarter-Life Crisis

The unwritten chapters are the most thrilling: the dull ache, the yearning for all that is to come”

Basically, in the last month, the allure of being a college senior has passed. Instead, I wake up most days realizing that this is my last time to do most things. Not just the normal things like football games, but random things like my last birthday with my college friends or registering for my last semester in college.

As the semester comes to a close so do acceptance letters for many post undergraduate schools such as my prospect: dental school. While I do know where I am moving after graduation, I do not know exactly what I will be doing. When you are a junior in college, things become a little more clear and you still have that silly idea that everything you have planned is going to happen exactly as planned.

While I have lost both of my parents, I have never really had anything else school/career-wise in my life not go according to plan. At this moment, I have absolutely no idea what I will be doing in 5 years. I could be living under a bridge with my dog for all I know writing my blog in internet cafes with spare change I find on the ground. I have never felt this twinge of worry so much in my life. And that scares me.

I, and many many many other college seniors, have no idea what is next because all the plans we made haven’t come to fruition. Maybe that’s okay. Maybe it’s okay to be hit by reality like that. I figure that as long as we continue to be hardworking and not let reality wear us down then we’ll be fine. We’ll figure it all out in the end, but we can’t stop trying.

So don’t worry, you aren’t alone in your stress and crises. Keep going. Life will figure itself out.

xx, Emily