Guilt isn’t always a rational thing…guilt is a weight that will crush you whether you deserve it or not
You have food when you need it, clothes when you want them, and a bed to sleep in every night. You have money to take trips. You went to college. You have a decent enough job. You are living better than a large amount of people in this world. You know what doesn’t care about all of this? Depression.
I am a victim of the guilt of depression….as if depression itself is not bad enough. I’ve had spouts of not wanting to get out of bed or eat or shower, and then i get overrun with guilt of the fact that I have the choice to not have those things. Then, I feel worse because I tell myself everything is fine and to get over it.
The thing is that yes, I, and many others who deal with depression, have all of these wonderful needs in life. However, your brain is what it is. The chemicals in your brain are different than a person who doesn’t suffer from depression. It’s not your fault. It’s no one’s fault, and you should never dim your depression because of guilt.
The fact is that depression is depression. I don’t care what got you there or didn’t get you there. It’s a feeling that depletes your energy. It sucks you soul. You have to accept it. The sooner you accept it for what it is, the sooner you can get better. Never let guilt prevent you from getting better because getting better helps everyone.
xx, emily